LIMITED WITHOUT FAITH

I read through the bible and I could not help but notice that this is a book of love. It is a book of the God who loves so intensely, so passionately and so consciously, you cannot claim lack of notice. His love sweeps you off your feet like a whirlwind. It washes over you like a tidal wave; you cannot resist the power with which it hits you. Hit, you fall under the forcefulness of this tsunami. The simplicity of this love brings you to your knees in tears. Its validity you cannot deny.

I am still standing.

Why?

I stand because I look within. I try to reason it out. Why am I loved? Do I deserve it? Does God really love me? Who am I to be loved?

I stand because I look without. I try to figure God out. What kind of God is he? If He truly is love, why is the world falling apart? Why are children dying of hunger and paying the price for wars they know nothing about? Why isn’t anything working?

I stand because my mind wants to understand God. I stand because I compare the truth of His love with my experience. I find it hard to believe I can be loved and that by the Almighty God.

Boundless, immortal, invincible, awesome brrzzzzz... There are no words to sufficiently, properly describe God. That’s how to describe my reach; how far my thoughts and analysis can go - brrzzzzz...

Limited.

I am limited. Language is limited. Human mind, human sight, human imagination, human experience is limited. We grope in the darkness of our human understanding. We search for the light that properly illuminates Him and even in that light we still cannot behold Him as He is.

Limited.

To know Him, we fall short in our search, to things we can see, things we can describe, things we can imagine. To understand Him, we reduce Him to things we can touch and explain and own.

Limited.

Who are you? I want to know you? Are you really there? If you are there give me a sign. Even our questions limit us; for even when a sign is given it is soon forgotten and we seek yet another sign, another explanation and ask more questions.

Faith.

That’s the answer to our limitations. That’s the light that promises guidance through our darkness. Faith in who He says He is; faith to believe Him even when His words are too true for our human minds to accept. We need to have faith in his love for us. Faith brings us closer to Him.

Faith.